Friday, November 30, 2007

I'm currently (among other things) reading Stars of David by Abigail Pogrebin. Even if you're not into Judaica, it's an interesting look at the vast spectrum of religious observance in America. One passage, from the piece about Leon Wieseltier, struck me:

"Generally in American Jewry, pride exists in inverse proportion to knowledge. So you will often find that the more learned or knowledgeable Jewish individuals are, the less strident and hoarse with self-admiration they tend to be. And the ones who know very little are looking for anti-Semites everywhere, because they need enmity to sustain their Jewishness...They think that the best way to express Jewishness is by fighting for it. And so in this way pride does the work of knowledge, sentimentality does the work of knowledge."

What I find so interesting is that this passage could be applied wholesale to American Christianity. It seems that a lot of people do more Bible-thumping than Bible reading. On one hand, it is sad when a person devotes so much of her or his life to a faith they know little about. On the other hand, it is absolutely infuriating to be preached at by someone whose knowledge of their faith comes from one of the latest "God Shows He Loves You By Making Your Life Comfortable and Prosperous" books. How hard is it to actually read the passages you use so wantonly?

Obviously, this is a major source of anger for me, and I am trying to practice some of the love and compassion that Jesus guy talks about. I don't claim to be a Bible scholar (far, far from it), but I make an attempt to read the Bible and read commentaries so I understand, at least in part, some of the amazingly complex and beautiful book upon which my faith rests. And if a person does that and leaves her or his heart open to new ideas and interpretations, I am honestly OK with most things they will use the Bible to support. I am much more comfortable with the most conservative person who has read and fought with the Bible and arrived at their position after much thought and prayer than I am with a much more liberal person who casually shrugs off Bible verses that contradict her or his positions.

I also had to chuckle at the pert of Mr. Wieseltier's quote about people defining their religion based on opposition. Especially this time of year, it seems that my more vocal brothers and sisters are up in arms over the "War on Christianity". Now, I fully understand that there are places in this world where practicing any religion other than that the sanctioned by the government will land a person in a lot of trouble. But doesn't it seem insulting to a person who practices her or his faith in the face of possible torture and execution to be up in arms about the "discrimination" of retailers saying "Happy Holidays" instead of "Merry Christmas"? And doesn't it strike anyone that the more accepting a country is of a multitude of religious expression, the better it is for everyone? How does religious tolerance hurt Christianity? And when did a religion have to be fought for in order to be valid?


I think I'm done soapboxing for now. I was just very excited to read a passage that so succinctly described the situation of and problems with American evangelism-style Christianity.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

I was hoping we could find a way

Part deux of "Places I find truth other than the Bible":

In high school I dated a Taoist and I also had a very good Taoist friend*. I had honestly never heard of Taoism before I met D and J, so my relationships with them were also a sort of religious education course. So at seventeen, I read the Tao Te Ching and was floored by it. To a kid who is really starting to chafe against a childlike "just because" ideology ("I believe this just because I do"), Taoism's simplicity and seeming lack of dogma was very appealing**. Instead of worrying about lists of rules and requirements (which is how I saw Christianity at the time), Taoism calls for us to be in harmony with the flow of the universe, practice wu-wei (non-action; being still until the right path is revealed rather than actively seeking the path), and stop struggling against the inevitable and constant tide of change. Cool; I could handle this religion.

Of course, Taosim is one of those philosophies that seems exceedingly easy and yet takes a lifetime or more to master, something it holds in common with Christianity. It is easy, for example, to nod in agreement when Matthew 22:39-40 is read in church; it is very hard to practice Jesus' teaching with the co-worker you cannot stand or the driver who splashes you with dirty slush as s/he speeds by. In the same way, it is easy to intellectualize the benefit of "active passivity"--waiting patiently for the right moment instead of trying to force it. How much simpler could our lives be if we went with the flow more often instead of trying to shape events to our desires? Not so easy is the actual practice of this passivity in a world that is constantly telling us, "Go, go!"

Wu-wei is usually translated as "non-action" (though it should be noted that there are dozens of translations of the Tao Te Ching, which makes choosing one translation as iffy a process as choosing one translation of the Bible), though it's a little more complex than simply sitting still. It requires watching the flow of things and going with them rather than fighting against them. Instead of a person running in circles and trying to make events fit her/his desires, s/he should shape her/his desires to the flow of the universe. I think of wu-wei when I think of Jesus' exhortation to always watch for his coming (Mt 25:13, Mk13:32-37). We can't make him come and we don't know when he's coming, so we should be always watchful and ready. It's not a call to complete inaction but rather to one of more thoughtful action.

I can always count on a reading of the Tao Te Ching to soothe my mind, especially when I find myself flustered about what God wants me to be doing in my life. Far too often I become overwhelmed trying to discern the direction in which God is trying to lead me and I wind up spinning my wheels, paradoxically upset that I'm not going anywhere and yet unable to make myself go anywhere. Spending a bit of time on the Tao Te Ching helps me remember wu-wei and its passive action. Just as Elijah did not hear the voice of God in earthquakes and thunder but rather in stillness, I am frequently unable to hear God until I stop running after him and let him come to me.


*Interestingly enough, I met them both at Catholic school (which could be the subject of many posts in its own right), where I also had Muslim, Wiccan, Jewish, Seventh-Day Adventist and atheist friends. Needless to say, our theology classes could get very interesting.

**For a religion whose main text is short, direct, and based on yielding and simplicity, Taosim has a lot of commentary devoted to it. The only two books I actually remember reading aside from the Tao Te Ching itself are Benjamin Hoff's The Tao of Pooh and The Te of Piglet. This is perhaps one of the more telling things about my approach to religion.

Friday, November 16, 2007

What if you did?

What if we gave up and started living lives of joy in Christ? What kind of revolution would it cause? What kind of things would be done?

What if we stopped running from committee to committee and started to work in the world? What if we stopped debating the best way to bring people to the church and just walked down the street saying hello to our neighbors? What if we stopped agonizing over how much money we needed to bring in to meet operating expenses and actually followed Jesus' teachings regarding selling all we have for the poor? What if we spent less time nitpicking the meaning of the smallest word and more time living in the Spirit of all the Word?

What if we remembered the Gospel every moment of our lives? What if Jesus occupied a prominent place in our hearts and minds, even while we wait in line at the grocery store, even while we interact with our insufferable co-worker, even while we ride the bus? What if the Gospel implicated all of our actions and choices? What if we devoted less lip-service to Jesus and to our churches and gave ourselves over to acting in Christ? How much louder would those actions be than our words?

What if the Bible brought us joy? What if we didn't slog through its pages in an attempt to get through our assignment and move on to real life? What if the Bible was our real life? What if we tried to really and truly understand it instead of flippantly declaring the words on the surface as all there is*? What if we decided to spend our lives living with and wrestling with the Bible in the knowledge that true understanding was an impossible goal to be made for a single lifetime? What if we recognized this and decided not to care and saw the Bible not as a dried-up set of riles but as the Living Word, always changing and showing us different things based on where we were in our lives?

What if we decided to stop calling ourselves Christians and start acting like Christians? What if we lived our lives in the joy of being Christ's followers instead of the drudgery of serving a judgmental, vengeful God who was waiting for us to mess up?

Just a thought.

*I'm really bothered by the use of the Bible as some sort of straightforward handbook, like it's a car-repair manual or the instructions that come with a DVD player. I don't think the Bible is meant to be read like a series of directions which, if followed, will guarantee a certain outcome. I see it more like one of those "Choose Your Own Adventure" books--a little convoluted, every passage leading off to others which lead to others which lead back to the first passage.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Wrapped up in books

Places I find truth other than the Bible, attempt number three:

I have a love affair with Judaism. For some reason, the religion has always called to me. The rituals, the rich tradition of ceremony, the emphasis on books and learning, the poetic language of prayer, the importance of the home and of home-based ceremonies, and the emphasis on community and culture are all important to me in my own path. I celebrate the major Jewish holidays (albeit in my own bastardized ways, which may or may not insult some people)--Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, Sukkot, Passover. I love Jewish history, books about the Tanakh and Torah, Jewish commentary on Biblical and current issues. Though I am a Christian and attend a Christian church, Judaism has deepened my spiritual life and colored the way I see the world.

A lot of people would say that this is a variety of "cafeteria Christianity" (a term I despise). These people maintain that a person cannot call him/herself a true Christian unless s/he believes every last item on a certain list of tenets and not a single word otherwise. These people have bumper stickers declaring that a pro-choice person is not a Christian; they practice yoga under another name so as not to leave themselves open to heathenism; they have no room in their spiritual lives for anything that doesn't come directly from the Bible. But I think that there is wisdom to be found in the writings and mythology of people and cultures who have also had experiences with the Divine. Maybe it means I'm gliding through some cosmic cafeteria--but I can't help having the mental capacity to believe some things and not others.*

I find that understanding Judaism deepens my ability to understand Christianity. A basic knowledge of Jewish history, culture, and law explains why the Pharisees and scribes were so freaked out by Jesus and his teachings. Learning the prayers and holiday practices adds dimension to the images of Joseph and Mary dedicating Jesus in the Temple, taking him to Jerusalem for Passover, and to Jesus' later Passover celebrations. It helps add dimension, flavor, and texture to the passages about Jesus teaching and reading in the synagogues. Christians were Jews before they were Christians (and Jesus was a Jew all of his life), and Judaism influenced many aspects of Christian worship.

I'm sure my religious pluralism would be offensive to a lot of people. Many Christians would surely see my belief structure as a diluted Christianity, accuse me of being wishy-washy, and pray for my soul. Many Jews would certainly see me as a dabbler in the easy or trendy parts of Judaism, or see me as another Christian who points out the similarities between our religions in an attempt to convert. Maybe I am a dabbler, a person who skims from other religions instead of getting more deeply involved in my own. But I don't understand my faith that way. I prefer to recognize the similarities and common origins of different religions. And if reading the holy books of other religions helps me to better understand God, where is the wrong in that? I don't skim and I don't flit. I am a Christian and I am faithful to that. But I also see the value in other religious practices and I don't believe it is wrong to use them as vehicles on my path to God.

OK, we'll call this part one. At least I finally managed to stick to my topic.

*To me, "cafeteria Christian" applies to people who decide what parts of Christianity apply to them based on ease of applicability to their current lifestyles rather than a person who, say, reads the Biblical passages about homosexuality and decides, after much thought, research, and prayer, that they don't refer to loving, mutually-affirming, committed relationships. In popular parlance, though, it's thrown around to describe a Christian who supports gay rights or who is divorced or who supports keeping abortion legal (as opposed to simply "supporting abortion", which I've never of heard anyone doing). Very few people follow every single word of the entire Bible, and I find it interesting that we have terms used to describe those who don't follow the parts we ourselves follow as though we were one of those few.

Monday, November 5, 2007

I am searching, I am not alone

I started my last entry with the intention of writing about the places I find truth other than the Bible. Then I got lost on a tangent (as is my wont) about Biblical truth itself and I ended up with a completely different entry from the one I intended to write. Let's see if I manage to stay on my intended topic this time.

I have never been able to bring myself to believe that salvation is only for people who believe in a certain thing. In middle school, I was very good at finding loopholes, much the annoyance of those who wanted to teach me moral facts. I believe in a just God and I simply could not wrap my head around the concept that a person who had never heard of Jesus would be sent to Hell for this. When I got a little older, I realized how much of a person's religious knowledge comes from her/his upbringing, culture, and life experience. I know a lot of people think that standing on a street corner shouting slogans and handing out tracts is a good way to "win souls for Jesus", but the truth is that no one is going to convert because of such an encounter unless s/he has been contemplating Christianity for some time already. Condemning a person for choosing to remain with the religion s/he was raised in and had followed all her/his life seemed about as harsh as condemning her/him for having never heard of Christianity.

So I'm not into winning converts. If someone came to me and wanted to know about Christianity, I'd share what I know. But I believe we are judged by God for who we are and how we live rather than what we believe, and so I'm not really gung-ho about preaching Christianity to every person I meet. In CS Lewis' The Last Battle, Aslan (the Jesus figure, although it took me years to see the Christian allegory in the books, thick-headed child that I was) welcomes a man named Emeth into his kingdom. Emeth protests that he did not follow Aslan but rather the god Tash, to which Aslan replies, "all the service thou hast done to Tash, I accept as service done to me...no service which is vile can be done to me, and none which is not vile can be done to him." When I read this, I was struck by the realization of its parallels to my beliefs. A good person is a good person regardless of whether s/he is good in order to obey Jesus Christ, attain Nirvana, or simply to be a good person. And I cannot believe that a kind, just, and loving God would send his children to Hell simply because they go to the wrong worship services.

In high school, I started to think about religion as a social construct, a man-made entity. I know a lot of people who, equating religion with spirituality, reject God along with Church as human devices. My conclusion was that every religion evolved as humankind's effort to understand and relate to God. I still don't believe that any one religion has the whole picture down. At the time, I thought this was a marvelously original way of looking at religion (as teenagers are wont to do), but I've since learned that far wiser people than myself have come to the same conclusion. It doesn't mean all religions are the same. I think there are profound differences between the paths walked by a Jew and a Hindu, a Muslim and a Buddhist, a Christian and a Zoroastrian. But perhaps those paths are closer together than we think. Perhaps they do end at the same place. Regardless, this belief makes it even less desirable to me to drag people onto my path. I'm not arrogant enough to think my path will work for everyone, although, as I've said, if someone expressed an interest in walking my path for a time, I'd be happy to share.

When I read the Bible, passages about withholding judgment from other people always leap out at me. Jesus tells us that we will be judged in the same way we judge others (Mt 7, Lk 6:37, Jn 8:15, the Lord's Prayer). Most of his teaching focus on how we should best love God and our neighbors, not on how we should make our neighbors stop acting in ways we find wrong. In John 8:1-11 (depending on the version you look at, which is neither here nor there), Jesus gives his famous "casting stones" pronouncement, telling a group of Pharisees that whichever of them has no sin may throw the first stone at a woman they have caught in adultery (no mention of the man, who was presumably also an adulterer, but this is again neither here nor there). So who am I to declare someone in need of salvation? It's enough for me to try and live my own life in a Godly way; how can I take it upon myself to tell others how to do so?

I'm all for "preaching by example"--living a Godly life and letting that speak for my religion. Perhaps this makes me a coward. Perhaps I am breaking Jesus' command to "preach to all nations". Perhaps I ought to be more vocal about my faith. But as I fail to see the effectiveness of in-your-face proselytizing, I don't understand why I should do it. The trick for me is to balance my desire to be accepting of other people's faiths with the work of being open about my own. I tend too often to be too laid-back, to the point of not discussing my faith at all. I have no real framework for discussing my faith without feeling preachy and I have not had much experience with inter-faith discussion that focuses on understanding rather than conversion. So it looks like my work is to learn how to be open and share my faith without the goal being to make the other participants in my conversation feel preached-to.

And once again, I deviated from my intended post by about the second sentence of the first paragraph. If I didn't think tangents were an excellent way of finding unexpected truth, I might be frustrated with my inability to stay on topic. I'll try again next time.